It's been a rough morning. It all started at 2 a.m. I slept on the couch last night because I was alone. My family is in New Mexico for Christmas and when they're not home, the house feels too big. The couch seemed like the only welcoming place. My dog spent half an hour barking at the front door, something both irritating and kind of
creepy. I woke up when my alarm went off with a crick in my neck and a dog on my back.
Then, in a rush to find an umbrella and make it into work without being late, I locked myself out of the house. And since I am a certified genius (I won a grant and everything) and keep my house and car keys on the same
keychain, I realized that I was a.) royally fucked and b.) locked out of the house...in the rain...without an umbrella...with a mean case of the
frizzies. Someone cue the violins.
After a knight in shining armor showed up in The Black Egg (thanks again, Marcos!), it was off to work where things were a little hectic. Nothing I haven't handled before, but I couldn't shake off the crappy bits of the morning and I felt kind of
bleh in general.
By 10:30 or so, things were looking up. Work had quieted down and I was starting to unwind. Then a guy came in. He was scruffy looking with a red beard and fogged glasses. He was tense and annoyed the second he came through the door.
"I need a permit," Red Beard grunted. His voice was gruff and he slapped down an envelope on the desk. He's not here to fuck around. I understand that, nobody wants to waste time doing unpleasant errands. But if you needed a permit by the end of the year, maybe coming in
December Motherfucking 23rd wasn't the best idea.
Of course, because the Universe has a sense of humor, we don't have the permit he needs. In fact, he's at the wrong place entirely. The only place he can get the type of permit he needs is in Phoenix. Great. I let Red Beard in on the bad news.
"You people keep giving me the run around!" he bellowed. "I'm not going to Phoenix when you should have what I need here." I've dealt with assholes before, this guy should be no different.
"I'm sorry sir," I said. "We don't issue those permits here because that piece of land isn't part of our property. I can give you the Phoenix number if you'd like."
"I'd like to tell you where you can take this whole damn state," he said. Deep breaths, I tell myself. I smiled him, trying my best to remain
courteous.
"You're
ridiculous," Red Beard growled at me. He picked up his envelope and stormed out.
Fucking prick, I think. A guy from down the hall, who heard the whole exchange, walked up to me.
"What happened?" he asked.
"We didn't have what he was looking for," I said. I could feel my face start to get red and tears began to well up. It wasn't just Red Beard. Everything shitty about the past few days and the morning that
preceded it had finally caught up to me. Being alone in a house that's too big, trying to accomplish goals that seem unattainable, feeling grossly inadequate about everything in my life. Everything I'd been successfully avoiding for the past couple weeks found me the second Red Beard walked out the door and took my confidence with him.
"Hey," the guy from down the hall said. "If someone is ever acting like that, my office is only a few doors down."
"Yeah, I've dealt with people like that before," I say. Christ, I can't believe I'm about to cry at work. "It just takes me a minute to
process it. I mean, it's Christmas, the time of year people are supposed to be on their best behavior."
"Don't worry about it," the guy says with a shrug. "Some people are dicks year round."
I laugh. Can't argue with that.
Also, I think this may be the last post before Christmas. I'm leaving Thursday to New Mexico to join the rest of the
familia, so I'll be on Christmas Vacation* until sometime next week.
Happy Christmas, all.
*
Sans Chevy Chase, of course.
